I'm talking about my family. They're disappearing, fast.
May 2007 - Stepmom died (Cancer)
September 2007 - Real Mom Died (Emphezema related)...This one was quite a blow. Had a pretty rotten relationship, almost to the very end, and when she passed I cried like a baby. Anyone have a time machine?
Today - Lost Grandpa #2. Lost my 1st Grandpa (Called him Poppy!) in 2001, that Grandpa was like my Father - he basically raised me.
Grandpa #2 was a nice man, although I only met him when I was 18 (long story, met my bro when I was 15, and my Dad when I was 18 - I am the king of dysfunction!). But Grandpa #2 was a neat old guy, kinda lost it mentally over these last few months, got very sick this last week and went pretty quick).
But it's weird when I think of this: Everyone who raised me is GONE. Along with the above-mentioned Mom & Poppy, I lost my Grandma in 2005 (she was Nanny, and was like a mother to me).
Nanny had been in a rest home for a few years, didn't recognize anyone for several years. Always seem to be familiar with me though, like she thought I was someone she might have known. One of the last times I saw her, I fed her, and she smiled, content. It was my Driving Miss Daisy moment, like at the end when Hoke feeds Daisy. I really miss her, and never really had a chance to say a proper good-bye.
When Poppy died, it rocked me, too. He'd been sick for a while but hung around, he was strong like that. Last thing he said to me was: "Go, have fun. Don't worry about me." He died 2 days later.
I need to talk to them again. Just a little sit down, give me like 10 minutes with each of them, just to let them know that all the times I rolled my eyes at them or laughed off their advice, well, they were probably right, and I was young and stoopit. And that in my life I'll be okay and I'll do the best I can to make them proud.
I can do that in 5 minutes, but I think 10 minutes is fair.
8 comments:
So sorry to hear of your most recent loss. May you find comfort, my man.
Sorry PJR -- that's a lotta loss.
Peace~~
I hear ya Patrick, I hear ya.
Make them proud and be well.
Sorry for your sucky year. I like to believe that they all have front-row seats to watch you rock out 2008.
(Actually, I have to believe that -- anything else is simply unacceptable.)
Pat,
sorry to hear about your loss.
2007 wasn't particularly great for me, but for you...
Losing all those people must be devastating. I feel for ya.
Hopefully you've filled your quota for quite awhile.
Sorry to hear about all those losses in your life recently. It would make me hug my own kids a little harder each time.
sincerely
Dave
I'm so sorry. :(
2007 sucked in so many ways. But you're awesome and every one of them is proud of you. I'd bet on that.
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